November 5th, 2009

Cold, cold nights

I hate the cold. I'd rather wake up sweaty than shivering. I'd rather walk on a cloudless, scorching summer day than in the rain.

Preferences, of course. Weakness? Maybe.

It's so cold I don't even need a fan at night and I still wake up with my skin prickling from the cool damp air. But I look at this as a chance to train myself against the cold.

I could use a sheet. Or wear a thicker shirt. But no. I resolve to wear sando and shorts in the house, regardless of the cold. I will learn to love the cold. Even if it kills me... or gives me the sniffles.

Currently listening to: Psycho Circus - KISS
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November 4th, 2009

Back to You

Hello blog. I miss you. It's been awhile, so let's start it off slow.

I'm watching castle over at videostic.com

Stana Katic is hot.

Currently watching: Castle: Season 1 Episode 3
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November 2nd, 2009

my eyes

when we are free from guilt,
we see the world with fresh eyes.

these eyes see what others do not,
people long to see what these eyes see

clear as day, the dewdrops on a petal
the stark noght cannot rob the light

but now my eyes have been clouded
i wonder what people see
when they look into my eyes
because i cannot see beyond the haze

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November 1st, 2009

Voting for a Difference

Election time is just around the corner. In a few months time, we'll be electing new public officials--people who are to protect our rights and advocate for the good of everyone. Unfortunately, I have to say that Philippine politics is somehow smudged with dirt. Many of the candidates have started airing their "public ads" and have been promoting themselves for the longest time now. The political ads make me very nauseated. They keep on promising the Filipinos a brighter future but history has proven that they do not fulfill these promises more often than not. Should they be like the Japanese, many of them would have committed harakiri after being suspected of dishonesty as a public official.

Campaigning has started early. Some of them who have the billions to spend on ads include Mar Roxas, Juan Ponce Enrile, Chiz Escudero and Manny Villar. Yuck! They all sound pathetically desperate to win the elections. Do they really mean what they say on tv or are they just doing these thing half-heartedly with the main intention of earning big amounts of money when they already have the power. Oh, I forgot to mention Erap Estrada who, after being granted pardon is now also in the race for the presidency. How greedy, pathetic and ungrateful he is. I don't know what will happen to us if he wins again. I bet foreign investors will run away from us having elected an "ex-convict" for president. Filipinos, you have to think, think and think again before we cast that vote next year.

My family re-registered at the Comelec last month. We had to do such because we failed to vote during the last elections. I'm still pondering on whether or not to use that one vote I'm entitled to next election because I'm doubtful if it would make a difference. Nakakapagod at nakakasawa nang makitang nangungurakot ang mga opisyal ng gobyerno. Again, the question of whether one vote would make sense lies in everyone of us. Maybe if majority of us would use our common sense during the elections, we would be able to elect a sensible leader that would re-create a new Philippine Republic.

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October 30th, 2009

Treasures!

Dreaming of more books in the future...

 

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October 28th, 2009

Dencio's at Harbor Square

After having a short photo shoot at Rizal Park, we headed to Harbor Square to have dinner. It has been a long time since we had Nanay come along with us so we have to make the night special. We had dinner at Dencio's even if mom did not have the likings for the resto. We had sari-saring sinugba (grilled pork, tuna and squid), chopseuy (mixed vegetables), kare-kare (beef and tripe in peanut sauce) and lumpia (spring rolls). Patrick had 2 rounds of rice as always while Nanay had Dad's half of rice plus another one of her own. We had a hearty meal and good photos as well. Dad and I went to Starbucks to have coffee afterwards while Mom, Pat and Nanay strolled along the bay and took more photographs.

I'm planning to buy a new Starbuck's tumbler after the payday. I broke mine a couple of months ago and I'm currently using the smaller personalized tumbler. I need a bigger one to satisfy my coffee cravings.

Currently reading: Physik by Angie Sage
Currently feeling: bored
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CoMMED Diaries Week 2

October 28, 2009

Magcocommed ba ako?  Minsan feeling ko, niloloko ko lang sarili ko.

Is community medicine really the road less traveled?  Sometimes I think it nearly always turns out to be the road not traveled well.  The least appreciated, minimal impact. Is it really for me, I wonder.

Of course there are inspiring moments.  Like during the trainer's training, I truly wondered what it would be like if I were to be doing that for the rest of my life.  However, I think that it practice it feels less remarkable. I feel as though I'm always on my toes, never good enough.  Is wanting something enough?  Is an ideal enough? How I wonder

I wonder: Are we just making ourselves feel better?

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CoMMED Diaries Week 1


October 23, 2009

Summing up the two clinic days we have found that all the bhw's do not fill up the classification portion of the IMCI form.  In Laiya Aplaya, the IMCI forms are filled completely except for classification. in Hugom, the forms are filled only up to the cough portion.  and some of the BHW's don't even fill up the Respiratory rate portion.. 

I wonder though what prevents them from writing down. Is it confidence? Is it skill? Perhaps part of it is skill and experience. Because if it was skill then they need to learn that skill comes with experience.

But how can we tell them something like that? How can we gently ask them to fill in the classifications and manage accordingly? 

I observed that it truly is difficult to correct or to ask for something on our very first meeting with the BHWs. 
The concept of "nahihhiya" is something very unique to the Philippine psyche.  It hits me though, and it irks me a little. This is a negative thing for me, on no uncertain terms. In English, it means shame. 
Truthfully, I consider this one of the very negative portions of our culture. Because this concept, in most cases, does not stem from a respect for the other person. No. It annoys me because it stems from a difficulty of receiving correction.
Plain and simple, we, as a people, don't take correction very well. We view criticism negatively instead of as a way to improve ourselves.  From this stems the delicate balance of dealing with any strange situation.  I hate how we have to walk on eggshells around each other instead of saying what is truly on our minds, like professionals.

Much as I hate it, that is the reality.  That is my reality in the community. And though I want to change it, and I know it should be changed, I know that part of our culture cannot be changed simply by willing it to be so.

I suppose my lesson here is Stephen Covey's Emotional bank account.  It truly is difficult to give any sort of feedback in any relationship if we are not in the position to do so.  Persons who give feedback have to be in a position where he or she is responsible over the person he or she is correcting. To have responsibility over a person is not only afforded by being in the position over them, but also by taking the time out to invest in the people emotionally.  In order to be able to work with someone, you have to be emotionally involved. THere is no such thing as "just work."
In order to obtain something (like a desired learning or behaivior) from the BHW's, I in turn have to invest in them. With time, emotion, getting to know them.  Without such a relationship, I would be in no position to have influence over them enough for them to receive correction from me.

Emotional investment will take time. As will being able to correct those whom we work with.  I suppose that is one of the great hindrances to our progress in the community.  There is no consistency. Every six weeks, a new batch of interns come in, and then they have to get reaquainted. Another cycle of emotional investment before something happens. But that's the reality. We have to make the best of it.

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