Sira ka Talaga! :)

anokaya

Sigh. I am developing a new infatuation on someone. In fairness, he is worthy--he is cute, he is smart, he is independent, talented and is my age. It also helps that we have some interests in common, which includes music and the arts. So yeba. 

But I think the last thing I need right now is another hardcore crush. Lol. I need to focus on meeee! Eyecandy is fine. But not when it turns into a huge distraction--and this guy has the potential to fall into that category. 

Seriously, he is hot. And it helps that we're the same age. And he carries my bag for me at times, how cool is that? Wah. Must-not-read-into-things too much. 

Sigh. Stop-thinking-about-him, got lots more work to do. Toodles.

anokaya

I am really, really, really bored. 

Someone save me please?

anokaya

* Will be singing in a comedy bar tonight as part of an assignment for the Center for Arts. Scary.

* Aisaku will go live on Unang Hirit tomorrow wearing nothing but board shorts. Hmmm. Interesting.

* Was just asked to write an article for Bangladesh's Weekly Economic Review. I will be published internationally in case it pushes through. Coolness! 

* Found people to go with me to "Dancing With Flashlights". It is <3.

anokaya

Guys, girls, feel free to disagree. Hahaha. But personally this is my explanation for the "wushuu... bola" line girls (like me) usually give.

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akosimic: uy i have a question 

hunichi: yes?

akosimic: if a guy compliments you...as in would praise something about you, would you think of it as bola or something just really sincere?

akosimic: i mean how would you distinguish nambobola from being sincere and honest about it?

hunichi: as a girl

hunichi: my first response would always be "wushuuu... bola", regardless of whether or not I felt the guy was honest and sincere. Rare yung diretsong "aww, thank you."

akosimic: and so i noticed

hunichi: kapag feel kong nangbobola ka talaga

hunichi: as in bolero ka lang

hunichi: hmmm

hunichi: magtataray ako

hunichi: pero kung either kinikilig ako

hunichi: secretly na binobola mo ako

hunichi: or naniniwala naman ako na sincere ka

hunichi: pabiro yung pagsabi ko ng "wushuuu... bola"

akosimic: hmmm

hunichi: kapag di ako naniniwala, at madalas ka mangbola... ang sagot ko, yamot ang dating: "yan ka nanaman eh. ano ka ba nangbobola ka nanaman. di uubra sakin yan"

hunichi: want to know the logic behind why we do that?

akosimic: uh yeah

hunichi: kasi sometimes we know guys just tell us what we want to hear

hunichi: so even if we believe it initially, we just want to make sure that you really mean it.

akosimic: hmmm

hunichi: else, baka isipin niyo feeling kami  or naive for automatically assuming what you said was true

hunichi: so, we have an exit strategy "wushu bola"

hunichi: so kung babawiin niyo bigla ang compliment niyo (which some guys do, in a pa-joke manner)

hunichi: safe kami, kasi sinabi namin yung wushuu bola line. Madali nang sabihing "sabi ko na nga ba, nangbobola ka nanaman e!"

hunichi: Cue yun for guys who really mean what they say to reiterate and reassert the truth of their statement.

hunichi: pag sinabi naming wushuuu bola, ang sagot niyo dapat "hindi nga, totoo!"

hunichi: tapos, masaya na kami nun. Maski hindi man namin ipahalata.

hunichi: wag kang mapagod sa kakasabi ng "hindi nga, totoo!" kasi hindi kami titigil sa pagsabi ng "wushuu bola".

hunichi: :p

anokaya

I've never thought of my voice as good. My vocal range is very, very limited--and sometimes my voice is wobbly, which I hate. 

So while I'm proud of the songs I've written, it has always been difficult for me to sing them in public. I love that I'm sharing a piece of myself to anyone who cares to listen, and there is fulfillment in knowing that some people can relate to the feelings and experiences I'm relaying through song. There is, however, considerable uneasiness about the quality of my voice and what people think about it-- causing me to be very stiff and self-conscious on stage.

Which was exactly what happened awhile ago. I took the stage for rehearsals, and I started singing. Couldn't bring myself to look at the audience, and I could feel the muscles on my back and shoulders tensing up. 

I could hear murmuring from the audience, something about my voice. And then after the chorus, someone loudly said: "wala ba kayong mga kamay??", which was when my classmates started applauding me. I didn't know what to make of it-- did that mean I was boring them? Or that they didn't even realize I was playing? Lol. I know my voice is not that good but it's *NOT* that bad either. So I kept strumming my guitar, and singing, until the song ended and I bowed.

Right after, this guy I really admire from the group approached me and said--"Ang lamig ng boses mo. Natulala kami. Sobrang ganda. Konting confidence pa, pero kaya mo yan!" and then as he was walking away, he looked back and said, "by the way, may kahawig ka sa Heroes. Si Ali Larter! Pareho kayo ng dating." (<-- I don't really know what he meant by the Ali Larter comment, but surprisingly, he's the 2nd person to tell me that). 

I thanked him meekly, but inside my heart was glowing with happiness. Hee. I know he's just one person, but I also know that he's not the type to lie. I really felt he was sincere in his compliment (and his advice). Sobrang nakakatuwa.

And then, this girl approached me and asked me for the song title. She says she likes the song, but she's never heard it before. I told her I wrote it, and she couldn't believe her ears. :D

Pero the best talaga yung while I was singing on stage, the guy who was holding my microphone started singing along to the chorus parts. OMG. How cool is that?? Someone's singing along to a song I wrote! Even if they've only heard it twice or thrice! Lol. 

So while I admit my voice may not be the best--increasingly I'm getting confident that it is good enough. And that I am going down the right path in pursuing long-forgotten dreams. Mayroon naman pala akong napapasaya, aside from myself. And who knows where else this could lead??

Hopefully, I get to follow my classmate's advice. Konting confidence pa. At dapat lalabas sa stage presence. Go Estelle, go! Kaya mo yan...! :p Sigh.

anokaya

When will you know when a guy likes you? Especially when the guy in question is a really, really good friend of yours.

Sigh. I hate uncertainty, and I hate my impatience. Hahaha. Everything happens for a reason--what will be, will be. :p