Entries for June, 2006

June 4th, 2006

Nerves and Worries


anokaya
I have to wake up in exactly 5 hours and 30 minutes from now, for a PTV4 debate taping.
 
I am quite nervous. 
 
I am worried that I might know a lot about the topic. Or that I ask really stupid questions at interpellation. Or give really stupid arguments at constructive. 
 
Most of all, I am worried that I won't wake up on time. Especially since I'm still not on my way to sleep right now. 
 
I am sure, however, that everything will turn out fine in the morning. They always do. 
 
Lord, give me strength. 
 
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Other, more important, but baseless worries plague my mind.
 
I hope my suspicions aren't right. 
 
Lighter posts for lighter days. Hopefully one will come up soon. 
 
 
Currently feeling: confused
Posted by anokaya at 04:46 PM | 9 boinkz!

June 8th, 2006

Earthquake talk


anokaya
All this talk about volcanic activity and impending earthquakes are making me jittery.
 
I wonder just how many of our fly-overs and roads are earthquake proof. Or at least would withstand a 7.2 on the richter scale.
 
I wonder how many of Lasalle's buildings are safe. Thank goodness I don't have any classes at Bro. Andrew's/Yuchengco!
 
Even my house is on a faultline. I think. (how would you know anyway?)
 
Gah! My mind is over-active again. And not in a good way.  
 
Lord, i'd like to pray that there be no more earthquakes, but I'm sure that'd be impossible to grant. Could you at least just bring the earthquakes in small installments, so that it won't harm anyone? Thanks! >:D< hehehe. 
 
Currently listening to: Itchyworms-beer
Currently reading: Globalization & Its Discontents--have to finish!
Currently watching: ANC--passively
Currently feeling: nervous-silly
Posted by anokaya at 04:18 AM | 2 boinkz!

June 9th, 2006

The Danger of Propaganda


anokaya
People believe government's rhetoric not (just) because they are stupid, but because they prefer lies which inspire hope over painful truths. 
 
Case in point, the implications of Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi's "death". (As if he died of natural causes, which is what such a value-neutral descriptive word such as "death" implies. "Murder" or "assassination" would have been more apt.) I've been monitoring BBC and CNN's coverage of this issue, and so far it's been painted as a positive development on the war on terror. There is talk of "crippling Al Qaeda", of "the possible end of Iraqi sectarian violence", of the possible start of "peace in Iraq"--even by independent analysts and Iraqi citizens, for crying out loud! 
 
American propaganda surely is working. To whose benefit? Bush's, I suppose.
 
An Iraqi says "I've never met Al-Zarqawi personally, but from what I see on television, I am sure everyone would be happy over his death". Well, hopefully. But I doubt it.
 
While I don't want to be seen as a doomsayer, I personally think this would make matters worse for Iraq and for the United States of America. 
 
Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi can recruit more terrorists dead, martyred by infidel Americans, than alive, hiding in some Iraqi safe-house.
 
I fear it will instigate reprisals and counter-attacks from his followers, at the very least. At most, I fear his death will be romanticized and glorified by Osama, and will be used to convert ordinary muslims into Al-Qaeda followers, suicide bombers.  
 
I'm not arguing that he should have been left alive and unpunished for his actions (which include beheading several Americans and supposedly bombing a mosque of Shiite muslims). I'm simply saying maybe dropping two bombs on him was overkill and counterproductive, especially when they could've just as easily captured him (he was surrounded by American surveillance forces at that time) and put  him through trial.    
 
Not only will that spare him from becoming a martyr and an icon--it would also prevent the validation of Al-Qaeda rhetoric, that the United States is compassionate and just only when it is convenient.
 
Who benefits from the success of American propaganda? 
 
If I am right, it will be no one. Except maybe Al-Qaeda.
 
Currently listening to: the voices in my head
Currently reading: Theories of International Relations
Currently feeling: lazy
Posted by anokaya at 03:50 AM | buzz me!

June 10th, 2006

What the hell is with the World Cup?!


anokaya
How come even google has a soccer man in its logo?
 
Can anyone explain to me why this event is such a huge thing? 
 
It's just a couple of guys (some of them hot, yes), in skimpy shorts, kicking a ball around!
 
What's worse: drunk half-naked men are their primary audience. 
 
Ugh.
 
Now I've got a picture of men with thinning hair ogling at a TV set where hairy legs are exposed and (soccer) balls are flying about. 
 
It is NOT a pretty picture. 
 
Currently feeling: unproductive
Posted by anokaya at 08:35 AM | 9 boinkz!

June 16th, 2006

Stock Market Madness


anokaya

I sold my Manila Water shares recently, making 20% profit in just a year, as compared to the 1% I would've gotten had I put it in the bank.

Which is why I dared to buy some stocks again, this time of Petron's. At P3.60, I think it's a steal. Of course, that's just me. More experienced investors might disagree.

Hopefully I exceed or at the very least get the similar amount of growth that I got with MWC. I figured, hell, if gasoline prices are soaring right now might as well make some money out of it. Just as long as exchange rates remain stable and no petron gas stations explode, I think my money will be fine. A couple of dips, maybe, but long lulls and bouts of depreciation with MWC already taught me to be patient.

I am extremely excited about my new investment. *giddy*

Looking into Jollibee next. :p That way, whatever weight I gain from overindulging in fastfood (Chowking, Delifrance, Greenwich are all Jollibee companies) will not only result in a fat ass, but hopefully a fat wallet as well. *giddy*

Weeee!

 

 

Currently feeling: EXCITED
Posted by anokaya at 03:23 AM | 2 boinkz!

June 18th, 2006

On Small but Life-Changing Decisions


anokaya
I was mulling over a decision this weekend, and my heart and my mind were against each other.
 
My mind was saying, this is reasonable. Listen to the pros and the cons. This will cause you less pain and no loss at all. Shrug ill feelings off, it's no big deal.
 
BUT I could tell that my heart, my whole being could not shrug it off. That it WAS a big deal, if only to me. And no cost-benefit analysis could change that.
 
Yes, this decision could cause me great pain, BUT... the pain would be momentary. As compared to the gut instinct that if I don't risk all of these to follow my heart, I will regret it forever. 
 
And so it is that I've decided. It's all or nothing. And I'm fine with it. Lord God give me courage. And thank you. For resolving my dilemma. I know it was Your doing. I love you Lord!
 
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Thank you for the sign.  
Posted by anokaya at 04:28 PM | buzz me!

June 20th, 2006

Unstable


anokaya
How lonely life is.
 
You can express how you feel in words and you can explain it to others all you want, but they will never truly understand the depth of your emotions. 
 
But that is exactly what I want to happen. 
 
I want them to know and understand how bad I want this.  
 
I want my friends to know and understand that no rationalization will ever make me un-want it in an instant.
 
I want them to understand, so that if the dream dies, they'll know why I'd need time to heal,
  
to grieve. Because a part of me would've died as well.
  
And so it is that I trudge through life's trials. Alone. Like the rest of you, alone.
 
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Agh. I hate it when I'm overtly emotional. 
 
 
 
Posted by anokaya at 04:10 AM | 2 boinkz!

June 28th, 2006

Silly Vague Happiness


anokaya
Wa-hoo!!
 
Luck and God's graces seem to be on my side. I no longer need to worry about what I'm going to do after college--at least as long as I don't botch this up. I don't know yet the depth of the project that's going to be given to me, but I'm glad they trust me enough. Weeeee!
 
I know this doesn't make sense right now, but I don't want to jinx it. More details will be provided once I'm already really working. *beam* 
   
Currently feeling: giddy
Posted by anokaya at 11:59 AM | buzz me!

June 30th, 2006

Sugod mga Kapatid! :p


anokaya
Yesterday I got 250 signatures for my Pare Ni Juan campaign!!! This is of course with the help of my wonderful friends: Bianca, Gabby and Jomar (all of whom I met through Debsoc). and of course, my Philo teacher. And Gina and Gigi Hehehe. I'm expecting more signatures tonight and next week. I gave signature-papers to Camille (4 in all), Robin, Dino, Mina, Ice, Carrie, Alex, Paul. Yey. If they are all returned with complete signatures, I'll have roughly 200-300 more.
 
So, 250 out of 2000 down. 1750 officially to go! :D
 
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P.S. If you want to help me get signatures for WWF's Renewable Energy Bill Campaign, please leave me a message through the comments section, and I'll email/call/text you the details. I'm even willing to meet you guys up to give you the sig-papers. hehe. Unfortunately though, there's no cash prize for those who'll help. I'm broke. hehehe. You'll be rewarded though. In heaven! :p
 
Thanks to everyone who helped and who's planning to help!
 
Thanks to JP, my signature-asker-partner! Hehehe.
 
 
 
Currently feeling: happy!
Posted by anokaya at 02:05 AM | 10 boinkz!
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