i feel like i'm coming down with the flu or something. oh no. and just when things were starting to get interesting. dammit.
how come the song bootylicious is repeatedly playing in my head? where the hell did i hear it?
i feel miserable. ASdf201394867 
sidelines are starting to pay off. 
got a stranger to sign up with dloads after a couple of text messages. earned P50, and will earn P200 once I place them on the right side of my 'tree' (for lack of a better term).
tomorrow, two people are meeting me to join up with sta lucia. hopefully they sell lots easier and faster than i do. yahoo. other deals in the making.
now i'm trying to look into whether or not paid to read emails really do work. my favorites are Shalomptremail and 150dollarsmail. If you want to try them out for yourself, click the links below:
150dollarsmail
- get paid $150 for each email. i'm not sure what the minimum pay-out
is though. maybe $15000. No harm in trying. Pays through e-gold,
accepts international members.
shalomptremail link to come later. their site is temporarily down.
lordy lordy im so boredy. :D
im so happy.
isaw vince, migi, jan, edmund, dodge, soc, gem,
pep (#boo), trin2, gobsmack, ella p., kikay, therese, anne, pipo, jett,
chino, anjo, allen, pao, jacque, max----- all in one place.
it was the splitcide ep launch party. dami tao. puno. plus the ambiance was great. i wouldve stayed, if only it wouldn't botch my chances of doing good tomorrow. i'm sure the guys understand.
it was great
to finally meet gem, their new manager. he was really nice and
friendly, plus he introduced himself to me when vince didnt bother
hehe, kidding. vince was busy. his hair was all slicked back and, uhm,
glazed. he looked like a younger version of rambo, i swear.
too bad i couldn't stay, it wouldve been great to catch up.
i really need to sleep soon. i haven't slept more than 2 hours for 2 days straight.
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met up with max today. was okay. he didn't have trouble finding me, good thing. that means my picture isn't deceiving (which is my main worry, i dont want to be accused of being a liar). ne-way. random blabbering will have to be put off for another day.
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UST-IVs
going great so far, 2-0! We beat ADMU A the 2nd round, yebahhh. Only
problem was, would it have been the same if the roles were reversed or
if the motions were different? That I have to think through. There was
a major improvement though from our Round 1 performance to Round 2.
Thank God for helping us pull it off. Tomorrow will be tougher, for
sure. But with God's help, nothing's impossible
I'm glad I'm back. I sure missed a whole lot of people. I would name them, but. yebah.
That, and I missed debating too. Hopefully this one sticks.
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ilovemyteammates
and
yeah i <3 *****! :D was it just me, or was he also trying to make
conversation with me awhile ago? you could almost smell the tension,
mwahaha. he's gasdfjghlm cute. why won't he talk to me out of his
own accordddddddddddddddddddddddddd. okiedokie, gotta catch my 40 winks!
Darn it. <br />
</p>
<p>But this tournament is working out great. Definitely one of the
best tournaments I've ever had, not because of the motions or
anything-- but because of my team... because of the things I've
personally been able to achieve... because of the new people I've
met... etc, etc.</p>
<p>I think I'm learning to be more responsive (i've
been forced to, since because of my hiatus, i kinda forgot how to
set-up and argue ehehe)... to think faster and clearer. I've also
eliminated my fear of certain debaters, although certainly not my
respect for them. </p>
<p>I'm also happy that I got to hug and talk to
more people this time around, maybe because I had too much energy (due
to excitement from being back) and missed people so much. In a burst of
spontaneity, I asked Jess if I could hug him. Wee. Bojit, Kae, Kevin,
DS, Eds, Arianne, and numerous others were also victimized. 
</p>
<p>Eliminated
my fear of Franco as well. He's really nice pala. Plus Eric DLC.
Weeeeeeeeeee. I never thought I could kidd around with the veterans,
but I guess when you're feeling crazy, anything's possible (i do have a
tendency to get easily "starstruck", for lack of a better term).</p>
<p>Gotta
read more, and sleep early. Have to ask permission from my mom to go to
AUDC (haven't asked her yet, don't know how to tell her). Gotta enroll.
asdfjghdlsgh. Gotta prepare for SMU Hammers + AUDC. Mentally,
Emotionally...Financially. Hehehe.</p>
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<p>i love my teammates. </p>
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee It was a great tournament. Congrats to all UST
peeps for the IVs, I think all who attended had fun. (the food was
great too, by the way. especially the chicken lollipop at break night
Reached several goals of mine in debating.
1. To have no speaker score below 75
2. To be in the top 5 best speakers (supposedly i'm 5th)
3.
But most importantly, to not make a fool of myself after a long hiatus
in debating. Prior to the UST IVs, my speeches in training were a
-bleeping- mess. Good thing, with God's grace, I was able to pull
through and not let my team down. Thanks Lord
Next stop: SMU Hammers & AUDC. Dependent on my mom giving me permission to go (although I already asked, permission still pending) and availability of financial resources. I hear the plane ticket might've increased in price already, since we didn't book early. That's a big Uh-Oh.
Hoping
though that everything works out, like it usually does for La Salle.
I'm excited to see Sushil, Song, Shuvam, Priyam, Joey, and maybe Shi
Yan again. Not to mention TL and RK Its also a good excuse to bond
with my 'secret' crush. Mwahaha. Tourneys are a treat.
Of course
there's the debating part as well. This might be the only tournament in
recent memory where I can smile and relax in the middle of a round,
without necessarily being too complacent or submissive. I attribute
that to a great team-up. So far, so good. Yebah. I'm learning to love
debate all over again.
And now all my blog entry contains is an entry about debate. nyaiks. back to olden times. :/ My mom's worried my grades will slide. I should be worried as well--that's a huge possibility. But. Yeah. Nevermind.
I'm sleepy, gotta get some shut-eye. Hurray, Hurray for DLSU-A! (had nothing else to say, gotta go now, hey!)
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I wonder if he has a blog.
I wonder. . .
i'm starting to suffer from attacks of severe infatuation.
darn-it. cuteness can kill.
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i obtained de-facto permission to go to singapore na
it wasn't explicit, but. . . sabi n'ya bisitahin ko raw yung tita ko dun when I'm there eh. Eh di pumayag na! hehe.
Now. . . what to wear? (and which flight to take?! hehe)
Excitement builds :D
apparently i'm 6th best. huhu. still, i understand. i sucked in some rounds. at least i still fulfilled my long awaited goal of having no score lower than 75... I did feel though that I deserved lower than 75 in one round :/ tsss. i must strive harder.
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yesterday
was a fun day with UPM. hehe. we weren't able to maximize the
time for training (eek) but nevertheless, it was by far one of the most
memorable crosstrainings i've had in recent memory (i fondly hold on to
"crosstraining" memories with CSB when I was a fresher. still tops my
list, debating as TL and Grant's Team mates against the CSB All-Stars
Too bad I wasn't wise enough to take more pics. Here are the only
two I've got to remind me of yesterday:
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dammit, yan lang. and i look unflattering in my pic--i look pregnant! wahhh. hehehe. damn that dress.
today we pay for our tickets. on sunday we fly to singaporeeee!
today was a wonderful, yet tiring, day.
1. paid off our tickets already--we're sure to go to Singapore (yey!)
2.
hung-out with Jahra and Cheska at RobPlace Mla, 'twas great. I loved
the Cebuano earrings at the tiangge, I've got to remind myself to go
get some for Priyam before we leave for Singapore. Browsing at the
astrology books and playing dress-up at topshop: memorable. First
gimmick with these girls turned out to be awesome, game na game sila sa
mga katarantaduhan ko ehe.
3. Went to frustrated afterwards (congrats Kax and Nii, what a
wonderful event! I saw Margie, Mike (looks different!), Edmund,
Migi, Owelwel, and Cyris. Met Monica and Monix, as well as Anj. Was
introduced to Gelo Suarez for the 2nd time. Wahee. Fun, fun, fun.
Didn't have much to say to people though, was overwhelmed, I guess.
Haven't been to a gig in A-G-E-S. Good thing my friends are
understanding. Wahee. Would've loved to stay longer had I not been
worried about tomorrow's training. :/ I have to step it up.
Ooh. Btw, I met Jon of J.I.L (Jon-Is-Lord), future bandmate (cross fingers). If Mike's invite comes true, I'll have two hotties for bandmates. Yebah. Nowww, to chop my locks and grow taller so I can look like them. They look like brothers... or mirror images of each other. Ta-dah. Yehey. I'm running out of things to say.
I feel bad. I should've at least seen Splitcide play. I miss them muchos. It's just bad timing, what with AUDC coming up. Speaking of, have to matterload. Then sleep. Weafhgldksghl.
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lying wide awake... under strange skies... wanting to call you, but it is late at night... and its times like these when you are always on my mind...
I have to stop being so gasdfgm infatuated. Someday, I swear, it will drive me insane!
chronic depression attack has passed. yahoo! i can be back to my merry self again!
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today, i realized: i'm okay with being single. heck, in fact, I think I secretly enjoy it. It's only during times when I'm extremely bored or idle that I start to think--man, it'd be great to have someone. But that's a rarity anyway. What with my impulsive nature and all.
Today, I bugged several people, all in an attempt to shake the depression away.
If you were included in the list of people I 'harassed', please forgive me. That's what friends are for.
Included in this list are the following:
Benj - sorry for the endless buzzing, and all the nonsense conversation (i usually talk nonsense anyway)
Steven - sorry for the space-outs. but i'm sure you're used to it.
BJ - sorry for the weird txts. but I enjoyed your equally weird replies. he2.
Bojit & UPM - urrrk. I don't know if anyone from UPM reads my blog, but I was supposed to ask you guys to skip training and just hang out or something. Hehe. But that'd be wrong. He2. (In my defense, I usually love to train)
Raffy - you !#@!$%^*!#)%&! hehe. Thanks for agreeing at such short notice to hang-out with me, even if we just ended up annoying each other to pieces. You're such a jerkish brute. Your script sucks (hehe). But we're still friends. Keep your friggin fone with all its greenness away from me and my cheeseburger next time.
Camille
- my beloved best friend. thanks thanks thanks for reading my mind
and texting me just when I was about to go crazy. You're the best
person I could ever hope to be bored with (especially if we're with Deb
and the gang). Wa-hoo. F.U.C.K for life (Friends U Can Keep for life!)
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am
starting a new blog. don't know what it will contain. pretty much this
is just boredom speaking. la-deedah. i need to change my sleeping
habits. school is coming up (gah!).
i can't sleep.
maybe it's psychological. maybe, before tournaments or major cross trainings, i'm not meant to get some shut-eye.
or maybe it's just the coffee. or fate.
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what if fate permeates even the smallest, tiniest details of our lives?
the seemingly insignificant decisions that we make every day (whether or not to dress up 1 minute early, or late; what kind of milk to have with which cereal)--what if they weren't really decisions at all? what if choice is just an illusion, to make us think as if we're in control? asdfkj;laskgh.
conversely, what if life is predestined? what then is the reason for living, if we were only meant to play a static role?
which version of life would you prefer?
one wherein your future depends on you and your faulty choices, you and your human weaknesses?
or one wherein your future has been carefully planned out, to the slightest detail? where you have no human error to fear, only lack of control, lack of a real reason to live?
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sometimes i think, we tend to believe what is convenient. and it is understandable. belief does not guarantee fact, after all. no one can claim to know the truth--if they do, then they are lying. In such a scenario, why would you want to cling desperately to one way of thinking, when both have their benefits and flaws?
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see? this is what coffee and boring travel agencies do to you. asdfkjasdgh.
hopefully i'm more coherent when we go up against Sir Martin & UPD in a few hours. *sigh*
