Sira ka Talaga! :)

been busy with school and debsoc recruitment the past few days, so didn't really have the time to post. Here's what's been happening with me so far:

a. still have yet to attend ROTC. I'm thinking of dropping the course (oh-no!)

b. been hanging out with the crush more often recently. Just last this week I played games at his house on Wednesday, planned to hang-out with him on Friday (he txtd complaining he had nothing to do. unfortunately, i had lots of stuff to do. hehe.) and ended up spending around 5 hours with him on saturday. good stuff.

c. been getting lots of pimples, been eating a lot. rawrrrr. been spending a lot too... bad habits galore. grrr.

d. recruitment week is going SO well. 106 have already signed up, AND COUNTING. My golly-golly-gosh. hehe. I don't know what we'll do with all of them, especially if all of them attend the G.A. this coming wednesday. I wonder... will we be able to handle this?

e. subjects are doing okay. most of my profs already know my name, except probably for our artsche teacher, Prof. Tupas. I've only attended his class once in the past two weeks. Oh well, that's okay. he's only had 4 mtgs anyway, and I'm excused for 2 of them... so i technically just missed 1 meeting.

other than that, nothing much is going on... am researching on Mugabe's ethnic cleansing of the whites right now. I'm going to "lecture" on it for my ENGLTRI class. It's either I do a speech on that (a speech to inform) or I talk about practical inventions culled from space stations. It has to be something interesting, or else my teacher will fall asleep and give me a 1.0. That's not good.

Been thinking a lot recently. About a lot of things. I hope my thoughts and plans will materialize someday. Will put them into action. I just realized what an empty life I'm leading... I still have a hazy future. rawr. *estelle sings.. "I just dont know what to do with myself..."

splurged P2000+ on books yesterday, plus a lot of other unnecessary expenses the past week. Seriously saving now... yesterday's spree was enough to jolt me back to my senses. where did all my money go?

i'm seriously sleepy.. I'm researching on Mugabe when I really shouldn't be. I mean, I should, but that's just item no. 3 in my priority list. my other priorities include writing a script for our Filipi class, and reading the assigned story as well. asdfkghdl. i'm just not in the mood to write, especially since i'm supposed to write something funny (my groupmates insisted it has to be 'kwela'). forced humor is stressful.

crush wants to volunteer for manila zoo. how sweet. hehe. being the aggressive lioness that i am, i told him i wanted to go to manila zoo too. haven't been there in ages. he's never been there at all. it's probably going to smell bad, but whatever. hehe. it's been on my checklist for a long time, anyhow. rawr.

will go to claret this wednesday with T.L. i'll watch her train them... will probably ask her to train me as well hehe i wonder how it would've been like if i was an active debater during my highschool years? but then again, hs debating wouldn't be the same. part of the reason i fell in love with debating is because of the society that taught me how to debate. i loved the people, and i still do, even the new ones that are coming in. so this is the "stake" that T.L. was talking about. I am so attached that I dread each unproductive month that passes by. Life in Lasalle is so short. If all goes well, I graduate by the end of next year. That's way too short for me to grow as a debater. :/ Way too short for me to achieve all my goals for college.

hayayay. oh well. have to get back to scriptwriting now. people have been commenting that i talk about a lot of guys i like that it's hard to keep track. yep. it's not my fault i see the good in everyone hehe. plus, i guess, its just weird that i now get to hang-out with my crushes, get to talk to them as well... i used to always scare them away (being the stalker that I am). bleh. so allow me to babble, will you?

i want a massage. i want to sleep.

searched for "Lasallian Jokes" and my blog came up. searched for the DLSU Debate Society, and my blog also came up. and it's not even disguised. it blatantly says that it's ESTELLE's blog. rawr. no wonder people haven't been having a hard time finding my site.

i really have to find ways to safeguard my secrets from prying eyes. hehe. rawr. im using pretentious language unconsciously. curse jean baudrillard and his P809.00 book. Requiem for the twin towers. ptsh.

still have no progress on my script. can't even find insulting lasallian jokes online! why is it that it's harder to find something when you're looking for it? ... the mysteries of life. *sigh*.

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someone from rx93.1 txted me. yeyey. hehe. just notified me about this year's bandbreakout, asking if we wanted to join again. i seriously want to recommend a band, but definitely not splitcide. once is enough. they'll go to muziklaban na lang, if ever they'll still agree to a band competition. hehehe. hmm. what aboutttt.. hmm. lets see. hehe. :D

debate debate debate debate sleep sleep sleep sleep noschool noschool noschool dream dream dream dream yawn yawn bored.

am currently dragging my feet on the powerpoint presentation nissy asked me to make. *groan* it's not that I don't want to do it, it's just I don't want to do it right now. hehehe. but I've made 3 slides so far (none of them which looks good, by the way) and I promise myself I'll have this done by tonight.

2 more responsibilities to get out of my way: my litera1 assignment and my stat assignment. both kinda hard, but here I am, chatting on YM about silly stuff (like me being recommended to fitness first twice). writing this senseless tab entry, which basically constitutes what I did (or didn't do) this boring day--something that will irk steven, i'm sure (he doesn't like self-cend entrieslike that. hehe. but whatever weee)

im tiredscript and presentation went well, got the highest (perfect) score in the class. as for other stuff, too lazy to write...

doze off for me please. got work to do.

I might be training a highschool debate team soon... I say might not because I'm not sure if I want to, but because I'm not sure if I have the skills for it already. I've only been debating competitively for just nearly a year (I'll be celebrating 1 year in the debate society a week or so before July) and I don't even have half the credentials that T.L. has. What authority will I have over teams that, from what I know, have made 2-3 appearances in a finals round already? Furthermore, having listened to them yesterday, I generally feel that there is no difference in the level of skill that their seniors have, and the kind of skills that I have. In fact, I think it would be fairly easy for them to win over me, in some occasions. Rawr. But I think it would feel nice, though... I've always wanted to be a teacher, and I think training someone in debate is the same as teaching them some skills in debate, thus being a trainer is also being a teacher.. diba? I would then have achieved one of my dreams in life at such a young age. Plus, I'll get to learn a lot from them too... pero yun nga, i don't know how much they'll learn from me. nyaaaah

Anyway, it was a great school. i didn't know that other schools could equal or even best St. Paul's when it comes to classroom equipment. In my highschool, we had 2 aircons, a computer and a tv for each classroom, a speaker (for the P.A. system) but no water dispenser. hehe. Claret had a tv, an aircon, a speaker + a p.a. system AND a water dispenser. how cool is that! no more need for coleman people.. yeaaah. i wonder why they thought of that?

well, ne-way, have to go to school now... I will leave myself to ponder something which T.L. asked me yesterday, which until now I don't have an appropriate answer to: "Why the hell did you join the debate society?" <-- said in the usual T.L. joking tone I just love her. She's one of my idols, really. Up there in the ranks of my lolo and my mom. She never fails to inspire...

I love the debate society. I love me. hehe.

one of my friends just inspired me tonight.

it all started with magic tricks, then moved on to other things, like goals for life and precious time... i might not sound very convincing right now but believe me, his passion was contagious.

i'm very very sleepy right now so all i can say is, i don't regret going to csb after class and hanging out there for 3 hours. in fact, 3 hours seemed insufficient time. it truly was the highlight of my day. if only others can see how diverse and interesting and brilliant each individual is not only in the dlsu debsoc but also in csb, i'm sure their life would be so much more meaningful... asdfkgjdhl. i'm talking shit here, pero yeah, i mean it...

i need time to sleep, yes?

i'll be a much better storyteller in the morning. i loved this night. thank you jay mata, thank you penny wenny, thank you luigi, wilbert, mateo (mitchhh), luissss and the new guy carlo hehe. i missed you guys a lot. hope we can cross the roads more often, yep!

sorry, just have to post the URLs of my resources for HW. hehe. I wasn't able to find the novel "Smaller and Smaller Circles" in megamall, so i just went to a netcafe and researched for book summaries and reviews hope that's enough to keep me afloat for our quiz tomorrow. URLs:

http://www.oovrag.com/~oov/books/2004circle.shtml

http://ayen.blogdrive.com/archive/cm-5_cy-2004_m-5_d-1_y-2004_o-0.html

http://www.uppress.org/press_reviews/smaller.htm

just last week, a friend commented on my resilient health, saying she has yet to see me sick over a year of friendship. of course, due to the incredible irony of life, i managed to get sick 2 days later. and here I am, typing, researching (yeah right) and coughing all at the same time. I forgot how bad a stuffy nose and an itchy throat feels like. ha-choo.

these are the days when i miss highschool. when all you had to do was get a parent's letter to be excused from class. now there's no excuse aside from representing lasalle in tournaments. and since there aren't any tournaments for those who can cough or sneeze the longest, my absences are obviously being added up.

i just hope i get lucky again this term. looking back, teachers have always had the reason to fail me. either i was exceeding the allowable absences or i wasn't passing the necessary requirements, there were clear signs of irresponsibility. but i still manage to pass, and get good grades even. i'm very lucky, and very blessed. sigh. i dont feel like writing right now really. but all i have to say is thanks Lord for making me realize the darndest things at the weirdest times. hehehe. let's hope i finish michael lim's assignment by lunch. thanks. :D

booyah. i don't want to cough no more. feels like a cannonball's lodged down my throat. rawrar.

i have absolutely no willpower.

i ate. again. even when i wasn't hungry.

not that it matters. i've been worse.

nevermind.

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schoolwork's slipping.

missed a 50 point exam in filipi2.
missed a midterm for histciv.
missed a couple of lectures for stat101.
missed a lot of things.

i do hope i can still catch up...
and that my teachers will let me make up for lost work.

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went out with him today.

dunno if you'd classify what we did as "going out", but we did watch a movie. spiderman 2 premiere. he bought the tickets (at first it was KKB, but then he later on decided to treat me for "passing without a hitch"); I, in return, treated him out to movie-food. burgers at tender bob's (good thing there were burgers in sight. popcorn wouldn't have been enough for my hungry tummy that time). again, the excuse was, passing without a hitch. played airhockey afterwards, listened to some free music at musicone.

*sigh* I like him when it's just the two of us.

of course, that was probably him just being nice. he probably had no one to watch it with, and asked out estelle, his gimmick buddy. hehe. and its not as if i really really like him. he does get annoying at times, especially when he's with his other friends. rawr.

but awhile ago he was just so nice. like that time when he accompanied me on the commute home. he carried my bag for awhile while we were playing our 2nd round of airhockey. he treated me even without me asking (and without me offering my counter-dinnertreat). he asked me which game i wanted to play at timezone, let me listen to killbill soundtrack, even if he wasn't done listening to spiderman. hehe.

wala lang.

juicy fruit.

i'm probably just lonely. hehe. this is nothing. ill go now.